DELUSIONS OF GRANDEUR

  LIVE ROCK CRITIC 2018    "BREAK HIS FINGERS"

Foreword November 26 : "Now young men play video games".

I would contrast those of us who when we were young men strived to become musicians and composers. We were not "Cooperating and Interacting"  pretending to kill everything in sight on a video screen we tried to set our thoughts to music with lyrics and new compositions. I attended hundreds of practice and writing sessions and sessions where the object was to create cool new tones. I think that we were better prepared by this experience to possess intellect and creativity than by learning to be ruthless devious and really fast to push buttons and keys in "First Person Shooter" video games. I just remembered that under eight boys all had six shooter toy pistols when I was a child. We also went out and into the fields and orchards when I was twelve in New Brunswick where we had a number of War First Person Shooter games including, in season, stick launched apples from the Orchards and snowballs in the winter. One hit and you were out.

  " We should break his fingers"  

That is a line from my song "Delusions of Grandeur" which portrays the bad attitude which the ignorant and un-creative have towards music composition.

https://youtu.be/0I5KAi-tIAc  This a link to the post of this song on my website Lindon Collard.com. 

I have written extensively about the disregard which has been demonstrated towards my music composition and performance. From neighbours trying to get the Police to break up music sessions in the 1960's til now pretending that music was a noise nuisance  or bad people were involved in music or there was an opportunity for a Drug Bust! 

Every acquaintance and family member knew that music was what I practised and created and poured a huge effort into. The hard work and accomplishment would be totally disregarded as Family members ripped off my inheritances and set up situations where I would not be able to continue to devote as much of my time and effort to music as all other things.  Particularly, my ex-wife wanted all my effort put into her and her low plebeian selfish desires, the artless philistine manipulatrix. Who would think that getting her way and my assets and even my work as unpaid slave for more than six years was alright and my dedication to my work on music was a deplorable egotism and mistake? 

I listened on a stereo TV tuned to Stingray, the patch was Classic Rock. I was amazed at the depth and clarity of sound that the re-mastered performances were reproduced with layers of nuance and movements I had not heard before. Queen was particularly amazingly complex and had low volume background symphonic and harmonic and counterpoint embellishments I had not heard before.

Freddy Mercury was not a family man. I was actually supporting a family in addition to my musical efforts and it is not clever or cool or sternly just to interfere with me and my projects and work. My pussy whipped little brother Andrew said " Who wants their brother prancing around on stage playing harmonica?" Mental illness must be responsible that nonsense. 

He and my mother decided that I should not be informed when documents were sent to me at my parent's address. Andrew, with Francine, La Grosse Fromage, running his life and mind decided with my mother that I should not get my uncle Albert's will because if I knew I WAS INHERITING HIS HOUSE and his MILLION BUCKS, I would "not try hard enough". I did not get a cent of that money. My brother's Franco Fascist Francine did not want to have to happen in "her new family"what happened in her old family, her real family, where her older brother inherited and was educated et al. Her new family:she was not even an in-law, no Rugenuis was in any way family with her. Francine Dagenais did not even take the Collard family name when she got married. She phone book listed my brother Andrew Collard Contractor, as Andrew Dagenais, her family name but the money was different. She wanted control into the Collard and Rugenuis  family assets, Rugenuis money coming from my Uncle Albert and my Aunt Annette. The married into the family women got together with my absolutely hateful child abuser mother and they worked at stealing inheritance money full time. When I was forced to pay debts and interest on money which only my father earned, loaned over my objection for my ex-wife's business, are not all of the persons involved Indictable Criminals, that is extortion. 

WHAT IS REALLY HORRIBLE IS THAT AS MY EX-WIFE SAID "TARGET HIS MUSIC THAT ALL HE CARES ABOUT". OHH, I LOVED THE MUSIC MORE. OF COURSE I DID. I WAS NOT TRANSPORTED FROM THIS WORLD FOR MORE THAN A FEW MINUTES BY SEX BUT MUSIC GOES ON AND ON AND GETS BETTER AND BETTER. MAYBE IF THE WIFE PUT A SIMILAR EFFORT INTO THE MARRIAGE AS I PUT INTO THE MARRIAGE, INSTEAD OF  JUST GLEEPING MONEY AND BEING DIFFICULT, UNCOOPERATIVE AND DEMANDING, WELL MAYBE MARRIAGE MIGHT BE MORE LOVEABLE AND THE WIFE AS WELL.