THE MANY COLORS AND TONES OF JEALOUSY

"DID YOU EVER THINK THAT IT WAS YOU, NOT A BUNCH OF BAD WOMEN THAT YOU KNEW?" I CAN NOT FIND THE COMMENT. I HAVE ATTEMPTED TO BE ACCURATE.

I THINK THAT THERE IS ONE AND THE SAME PROBLEM IN THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN MYSELF AND THEM.

IT IS A MATTER OF MY MANY COLORS AND TONES. I AS I DRESSED TO PLAY HARMONICA WAS NOT AWARE THAT THIS MANY COLORED SILK AND VELOUR COSTUMING WOULD OFFEND JEALOUS PEOPLE. 

THE MANY TONES OF MUSICAL PERFORMING MAY ALSO HAVE BEEN A CATALYST IN THE GENERATION OF JEALOUS HATRED. 

I CANNOT SEE ANY PATH THAT A WRITER OR A MUSICIAN COULD FOLLOW WHICH WOULD NOT REQUIRE STABLE, ADEQUATE AND PERMANENT FINANCIAL SUPPORT

IT WOULD BE HIGHLY UNLIKELY THAT A WRITER OR A MUSICIAN WOULD RECEIVE  A SALARY IMMEDIATELY UNLESS THEY WORKED FOR A NEWSPAPER OR THEY PLAYED IN A  BAR BAND AND EVEN THOSE LOW PAYING JOBS REQUIRED EDUCATION.

I BELIEVED WHAT I WAS TOLD ABOUT THE REQUIREMENT OF A DAY JOB TO SUPPORT MYSELF WHILE I DEVELOPED MY ABILITY TO WRITE AND LATER TO COMPOSE ORIGINAL MUSIC AND PERFORM IT LIVE.

THERE WERE AN UNBELIEVABLE NUMBER OF INSTANCES WHERE MY PLANS WERE DERAILED. IT IS POSSIBLE THAT MY BEST CHANCE TO BECOME A WRITER AND WHICH WOULD HAVE DEFINITELY ENTERED ME INTO THE MUSIC INDUSTRY WAS IN 1964 WHEN I WAS GOING TO USE MY TRUST FUND TO BUY A LITTLE HOTEL WHICH HAD A DANCE HALL WITHIN IT.

IT WAS LONG AGO THAT I HAD MY LAST CHANCE TO WORK AT MY ART WRITING AND MUSIC. IN 1992 I WAS IN LONDON ENGLAND WHERE I MADE A FAVORABLE IMPRESSION AND I JUST COULD NOT LEAVE TO GO BACK THERE TO ADVANCE MY MUSICAL CAREER MY PAID OFF EX-WIFE WOULD NOT STOP POLICING ME.

I HAD ABOUT $2 MILLION OF INHERITED MONEY STOLEN FROM ME BY MY SIBLING FAMILY AND MY WIFE. THAT WOULD HAVE SUPPORTED ME TO DO MY MUSICAL PROJECTS VERY NICELY.

THERE WAS THIS HAMPERING AND HARASSMENT AS WELL. 

I WAS CRUSHED. 

LINDON COLLARD TOTAL RECALL

FROM "LINDON COLLARD TOTAL RECALL"

 

PERIODICALLY I REALIZE HOW ABSURD THE CONTROLLING FREAKS ARE.

MY MUSICAL ENTERPRISE HAD  

LITTLE TO DO WITH ANYONE 

ON VANCOUVER ISLAND AS 

IT HAPPENED IN MY STUDIOS 

HERE OR IN VANCOUVER. 

ONCE I GOT FARTHER AFIELD, 

BUT I WAS A CITY OF VANCOUVER 

MUSICIAN. 

WHY WOULD THE COLLARD FAMILY 

WOMEN BE INVOLVED WITH THAT 

AT ALL? 

THEY WANTED TO STAMP IT OUT.

THE POLICE HERE AT OTTER POINT, 

THE SOOKE RCMP, WERE VERY 

INTERESTED IN DISCREDITING 

ME AND IN ( FROM FOI ) INTERFERING 

WITH MY MUSIC CAREER. WHY? 

THE VANCOUVER POLICE, IN THE 

CITY WHERE I SOUGHT MY CAREER 

DID NOT INTERFERE WITH ME EXCEPT 

FOR FRITZ VERHOOVEN'S POLICE 

FRIEND FROM THE DOG SQUAD. ( I FORGOT. )

WHY WOULD POLICE BE INVOLVED 

WITH NOT A PARTYING BUT AN 

ORIGINAL COMPOSING AND 

LYRICIZING MUSICIAN?