I COULD NOT BUT THINK WHAT MALICE HAS BEEN DIRECTED AT MY ARTISTIC AND MUSICAL PURSUITS.
I was grinding coffee and I thought about how Law Enforcement exhibited Malice, not just to myself, but probably in my case it would have to do with a failure to accept that I can write and video if I want to. I did not neglect to have additional employment besides the Arts.
The way I set myself up in Vancouver BC with a job which could have a 75 hour month if I wanted to and I wanted to. I would work three weeks and take one week off, my back required that and I could do ten days of music and art. I was then free to pursue the Art of writing by having unusual experiences and travelling in interesting circles.During the five day work weeks, I would get off work at 9 pm on My Job starting at 4pm and I and the crew would have a real dinner hour at 6pm. This was ideal and would fit right in with playing Harmonica. I know it was 1970 when this ended but I continued the writing and musical pursuits and again and again, My Job would have been the perfect support to be able to work at the Arts.
I MADE IT SO CLEAR AS TO WHAT I WAS DOING. FOR YEARS I PRACTICED AND WROTE SONGS WITH THE INTENTION OF PERFORMING AND BEING EMPLOYED.
IT IS NOT RIGHT THAT MY MOTHER SHOULD FORBID A FORTY YEAR OLD TO SPEAK OF MUSIC TO ANYONE AND THAT MY WIFE WOULD SAY TO POLICE ``HE`S CRAZY, HE THINKS HE IS GOING TO BE A ROCK STAR``AND THE POLICE WOULD GET ON BOARD, SAYING I WAS CRAZY IN WRITING! ANOTHER TIME, A RCMP SAID `` WE ARE GOING TO END THE FUN HERE``. YET ANOTHER TIME ``DO YOU JUST GO CRAZY AND PLAY.``
I cannot believe my own experience at times. I was crippled in an accident and lost my job at the CNR, which did not have to happen but there is Malicious Practice by Insurance Companies and their lawyers. Despite losing my corporate employment, I wanted to keep the writing and the music. What did Family, and later Police, expect me to do to do? With 20 years of music practice disacknowledged, my Mother wanted me to get a job at 7-11 while I had to squeeze in music two long weekends a month while paying damned extortion. I had to pay $475 per month to Mother on my wife`s business debt which I had refused to do but was forced to. I also had to pay $1000+ a month because I would not let my wife defraud Welfare. I was ordered to pay ``Under the Table``. That meant growing Marijuana and giving the Money to Mother and Andrew and Joanne. Francine probably ordered Andrew to do it and I had to give even more money to my wife and then ex-wife, secretly in cash for all of them.
A few years earlier, when the Wife ``Had Feelings `` and wanted her own ``Major Business`` I had to pay for it, install it, borrow a pile of money, work for ZERO PAY and then pay interest ``Under the Table``on the wife`s debt and the principal was taken from my inherited money from Albert, all that was left, after numerous relatives inserted their names on the will under mine, in different type, 10% or less, and from the half I would have gotten from Annette. Hundreds and hundreds of thousands of Dollars diverted, seized and then deductions for Betty Costs from the paltry remains.
MY ART AND MUSIC WERE NOT ONLY IGNORED AND MY INTENTIONS AS WELL BUT I THINK MY ART AND MY MUSIC MOTIVATED MALICIOUS ATTACKS ON ME. SURELY IF I WAS IMPOVERISHED I WOULD HAVE TO QUIT THE GRAND OVERWEENING ARTISTIC WORK!
I was kept from knowing about inheritances which the Family had changed to benefit them. I was deliberately put into debt when it was well known I would not borrow money. You think you are so smart I was told by my UGLY bloody sister we fixed you, regarding the hiding of mail and stealing inheritances.
DID MY ARTISTIC PURSUITS MOTIVATE MALICE AND ALSO CREATE A VULNERABILITY AS IF I WAS UNSTABLE AND DAMGEROUS BECAUSE I THOUGHT I WAS AN ARTIST AND A MUSICIAN, ``THOUGHT ``.
